Thursday, April 30, 2015

Hamsa

The Hamsa is the symbol of an eye embedded in the palm of an open hand. It has had several names throughout the ages, like the eye of Fatima, the hand of Fatima, and the hand of Miriam.
It has been interpreted as a Jewish, Christian, or Islamic amulet, and as a pagan fertility symbol. Yet even as the magical form remains shrouded in mystery, it is recognized today as a kabbalistic amulet and as an important symbol in Jewish art.


One of the early appearances of the hamsa is the image of a large open hand on the Puerta Judiciaria (which means Gate of Judgment) of the Alhambra, a 14th-century Islamic fortress in Granada (Spain). Indeed, it seems to draw upon the Arabic word khamsa, which means "five," a number which itself is identified with fighting the Evil Eye.


Tuesday, April 28, 2015

Beautiful Short Circuits

I hear your winter is coming
I feel the snow is falling
Covering my burning
Open scars of fight

Silence my ambition
Place me on a position
Leading to a transition
Unexpected turn

In my bloodstream traveling
All my senses numbing
On the way to pleasure
I forget to live

Detaching from my misery
Dreaming of a perfect me
When no one can hurt me
Everything is clear

An everlasting rush I need
I want to live eternally
Never again touching the ground
I'm afraid it will swallow me all

I swear I'd give you anything
To stay like this forever
Don't interfere in my daydream
The only thing I own is this

I'm happy like never before
If you don't approve, c'mon, move
It's not your business to decide
What's good for me or what's bad

Where's your happiness now?
Where's your happiness now?
Didn't you consider the chance of having a short circuit?
Can't you see this is destroying you?
You are burning!
But you are still on time to survive
Don’t surrender, not yet…

One day I changed the stage
Everything was nothing
Digging on a hollow sea
Black as never ending night

Looking for the smallest light
To prove me there's an afterlife
While vomiting the ashes
Of the older times

I guess I want to try
By ending my beginning
Ending my beginning...


I wrote this in 2010, while in a band named LSD Ravens.

Sunday, April 26, 2015

Smoke Free For One Year

The first time I tried a cigarette I was 10 years old. I was playing cards with some family members and I remembering grabbing it from my aunt. Of course, it felt awful and I thought to myself I would never do it again.

Two years later, however, I started paying attention to the colorful packs each time I had to go to buy the newspaper. I learned the names of all the brands available.
One day, I was able to buy a pack at a machine in a bar, even though it had an advertisement that clearly said that tobacco was not to be sold to minors. However, nobody called my attention.
Nonetheless, this adventure was cut short, as I was caught by my sister buying the next pack. The scolding kept me away from trying for many years.

I went back to trying cigarettes, though, once I left home when I was 19. It started as an occasional habit I would only do when partying on the weekends. However, as an adult now, I was being exposed to a more tobacco-prone environment (roommates, college, friends), as opposed to my previous years - neither my parents nor my siblings were smokers (at least not at home).

By age 20, I was smoking everyday and the addiction lasted until I was 30. I was never a heavy smoker and my average daily count was between 5 and 10 cigarettes. I knew I was addicted the first time I wanted to quit smoking and failed. I was still only 20.
Since then, I do not know how many times I tried quitting. Some attempts would last hours or a few days. There were, though, a couple of more successful attempts. One was when I was 23, that lasted 4 months; another one, when I was 25, that lasted 6 months.


Thursday, April 23, 2015

Books, Mayim and Vegetarianism

Today, April 23rd, is a Catalan holiday called La Diada de Sant Jordi (Saint George's Day), also known as El dia de la Rosa (The Day of the Rose) or El dia del Llibre (World Book Day).
It shares some similarities to Valentine's Day. Indeed, the main event is the exchange of gifts between loved ones. Historically, men gave women roses, and women gave men a book to celebrate the occasion. In modern times, though, the mutual exchange of roses and/or books might be performed anyway regardless of the gender.

While roses have been associated with this day since medieval times, the giving of books is a more recent tradition originating in 1923, when a bookseller started to promote the holiday as a way to commemorate the nearly simultaneous deaths of Miguel de Cervantes and William Shakespeare on April 23rd, 1616.
Catalonia exported this tradition of the book and the rose to the rest of the world: in 1995, UNESCO adopted April 23rd as the World Book Day.

This year, my gift was a book I had been waiting to own for some time now:



Tuesday, April 21, 2015

The Loss Of A Parent


I am a 31-year-old fan of your work from Barcelona, who lost his mother to a fulminant ovarian cancer when he was 10. It all happened in less than a month.

I suddenly felt my life had ended and had to start a new one. I thought, though, nothing would hurt me as much again, and yet I learned recently that we are never ready to say goodbye to a loved one.

My father died of a heart attack after this past Rosh Hashanah. Again, a new life is beginning again and sometimes it is not easy.

Fortunately, life goes on and is to be spent with your loved ones. Allow yourself to feel, live and love.

My deepest condolences for your loss.

Kind regards,

Toni M

Monday, April 20, 2015

Kanizsa's Triangle

The Kanizsa's Triangle is a visual illusion that falls in the category of illusory contours. These evoke the perception of an edge without a luminance or color change across that edge, like on the next image:


Here, these spatially separate fragments give the impression of a bright white triangle, defined by a sharp illusory contour, occluding three black circles and a black-outlined triangle.


UPDATE (04/28/2016):

Actually, I never mentioned that the reason why I like this figure is because it resembles the Star of David. However, since I have spoken about Judaism several times through this blog, that should not come as a surprise to you.

Sunday, April 19, 2015

False Sunset

Yesterday, I had the chance to witness an event called false sunset.

This event can refer to any of the following atmospheric optical phenomena:

1) the sun appears to be setting below the horizon, while in reality it is still some distance above it

2) the sun has already set, but still appears to be on or above the horizon.

There are several atmospheric conditions which may cause the effect, most commonly a type of halo, caused by the reflection and refraction of sunlight by small ice crystals in the atmosphere, often in the form of cirrus or cirrostratus clouds.


You can read more about it here.


Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Pain

Once I was the singer in a band called Go Ape.

The band formed in the summer of 2008 in Barcelona, Catalonia, and lasted only a year.

We played four shows in the first half of 2009 and started recording our first album, even though this was never completed, because we split soon after.

This was the last song I wrote while I was in the band (it was neither recorded nor ever played live).

I choose to publish this today, as we commemorate the Shoah (Holocaust Remembrance Day) and pain is the first thing that comes to my mind when I think of it:


Pain

I cannot dive into your eyes
An empty land, that's paradise
A storm of dust, remaining sand
The wind is blowing there inside

No liquid life, no hope to arise
A vast plateau extending far
I want to cry, I want to die
I feel a void I cannot stop

It grows in me, it grows in time
I'm flying to the promised land
The journey is long, I'm coming old
When will this suffering be done?

You were my life, you were my path
And now I have to wave goodbye
I have no choice, I have no force
I see I don't know what I want

I feel so lost, I feel alone
I wish I just could get back home
Oh rescue me or leave me now
Please end this torture on your own

End this torture now...

I like it
I hate it
Please end it right now

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

April 14

The place I have been living in for the past decade is called Badia del Vallès. It is a town and municipality in the Metropolitan Area of Barcelona, Catalonia.

The township has its beginnings in the decade of 1960 by a government plan aimed at creating a residential area on the outskirts of the towns of Barberà del Vallès and Cerdanyola del Vallès.

The construction was started and completed in the first half of the decade of 1970.

On a day like today, in 1994, Badia del Vallès separated from Barberà del Vallès and Cerdanyola del Vallès and it established itself as a municipality. Before that, the town had been known as "Ciutat Badia."

The town covers an area of 0.92 square kilometers (0.36 square miles) and, as of 2014, it has a population of 13,553 inhabitants.

Most of these people emigrated from the southern half of Spain. Thus, being a migrant bird, the swallow was chosen as the symbol of the town.


Monday, April 13, 2015

Real Love

Love happens easily and naturally.

No games.

Two people meet and they are ready to journey together.

No imprisonments or psychologically empty deals.

It is simply:

  • I love you and I want the best for you. 
  • You love me and you want the best for me. 

That is real love.


Read more about it here.


Sunday, April 12, 2015

Sun

The last beams of light are way beyond the horizon, but an optical illusion makes us think they are still there. Indeed, they are saying goodbye and goodnight.

Darkness starts growing behind and soon will cover the whole sky. From blue to black.

Another day is behind, but a new one expands.

First twilight, then night.

I am not worried, as within some few hours, the sun will be back. 

Since day number four, it has not ever missed an appointment; do not forget that...


Friday, April 10, 2015

WOR(L)D

Words are very unnecessary, they can only do harm.

Words are useless, especially sentences.

But...

Don't you wanna hear the word?

Welcome to my world! The word is love.

Listen...


Thursday, April 9, 2015

L-I-V-E

Behold all directions: north, south, east and west. And all in between, plus up and down.

Past, present and future. Frontwards, backwards and sideways.

- Walk!
- ...
- I said walk!
- I'm confused, I don't know where to go, I'm scared!
- Of what?
- Of potential dangers.
- You said it well yourself: potential means it could happen, but it may not happen as well.
- Bad things happen.
- Good things happen too, so are you going to spend your time wondering about what bad things could happen to you, or are you going to enjoy the good ones that surely will happen?
- I don't want to be caught by surprise when bad things happen, because you and I know they will. I want to be ready.
- That's just lost energy; and time. Enjoy and trust yourself. You will know how to manage when faced with real danger. And if not, you will learn. So don't be afraid: live and enjoy.
- Ok!


This text is all a creation of mine.


Wednesday, April 8, 2015

Corruptéd

In the deepest o’ thine heart
In the midst o’ thine eternal sorrow
Thou wilt ne’er alone be
Tho’ wantest thou to die
Tho’ wantest thou not a tomorrow
Will I to save thee appear
Thou many things to this world to say hast
We all know that ‘tis full o’ façade
We all know that ‘tis full o’ lies
But thou something important to say hast
Kept’st thou thy tears inside
Now ‘tis time to let them go outside
Do not be afraid o’ what they would say
Didst thou not know ‘tis a way of life?
We all are not the same type o’ mind
In the midst o’ this bloody rain I daresay
So ‘tis a good point in shadow
‘Tis provoked by light
And alone or together we’ll it find
Thou many things to this world to demonstrate hast
‘Tis scribed ‘tis full o’ fassade
‘Tis paroled ‘tis full o’ lies
But thou something important to live hast
Corruptéd but wi’ right
To live in a world black


I wrote this piece in May 10th, 2002.

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

Treat Others The Way You Want To Be Treated

Recently, I completed a course from AlephBeta, which was pretty interesting, because it dealt with the hidden structure of the Ten Commandments.

Judaism is synthesized in 613 mitzvot (plural form of the word mitzvah, which means "commandment"). These are, in turn, classified in ten commandments:

1) I am the Lord thy G-d.
2) Thou shalt not make unto thee a graven image.
3) Thou shalt not take the name of the Lord thy G-d in vain.
4) Remember the Sabbath to keep it holy.
5) Honor thy father and thy mother.

6) Thou shalt not kill.
7) Thou shalt not commit adultery.
8) Thou shalt not steal.
9) Thou shalt not bear false witness.
10) Thou shalt not covet.


Monday, April 6, 2015

Believe

I believe in the power of a word.

I believe in the power of letting go.

I believe in me.

I believe in you*:

  • [insert name here]
  • partner / spouse
  • offspring (no human/non-human distinction)
  • family
  • friends
  • G-d

*The order of the factors does not affect the product

Sunday, April 5, 2015

Defining Fear & Anxiety

Fear and anxiety may produce the same answers to certain dangers; muscle tension, increased heart rate and shortness of breath are some of the symptoms associated with a response to danger.
These changes are believed to be necessary for our survival. In fact, without this stress response, our mind would not receive the alerting danger signal and our bodies would be unable to prepare to flee or stay and battle when faced with danger.

At first, therefore, those symptoms do not have to be necessarily associated with negativity. Survival is, indeed, a very positive thing. Then, we can infer (and we all know already) that giving up surviving is not positive.
The negative side of fear and anxiety comes when they become a permanent fixture in our lives and start controlling our minds (and, consequently, our bodies). They can be interrelated: fear causes anxiety and anxiety causes fear.

But no matter how many similarities they have, those two are not the same thing at all.